As an African-American author, I am often sensing the doors are closed, locked, and sealed long before my arrival. It is tough for me to imagine something lastingly benefitual would come of it. My acknowledgment; supporting oneself and family as an author is realistically difficult requiring more sacrifice than anticipating. If authorship is a noble endeavor, it is unnecessary-unwise anyone should suffer for it. When it gets to that point, it is the course of wisdom to release oneself from it.
I truthfully want to let go of this unhappiness and unrealistic anticipation for success in an unfair, very competitive industry. It is not nearly as un-idealistic, impractical as seeking an acting or professional sporting career but it is as unpromising in my viewpoint. Yes, it's true, I want to give up on it, forsake it respectfully. Such a resolved feeling I honestly feel it isn't due to a lack of courage or willingness to work diligently and efficiently. Such a decision would not dismiss the pleasures of participating in the art of writing. From time to time, I might publish a book whenever time in the future. Nonetheless, it will not be a primary career endeavor and significant pursuit to sustain myself economically by writing and publishing.